I don't want them to remember me as a ball of stress who works all the time and ignores them while I spend hours editing photos of other seemingly happy families. But, at this point in our lives, I don't have much choice as far as the work goes. So, my resolution is to try to find more balance. To try to be more present and more thankful for our little victories. To remember that even when life is crazy-busy-stressful and I am facing a mountain of work/housework/school work/bills and a long list of needs and wants by those all around me, that this life is a gift. Each day is a gift. And it is my responsibility to make the most of it. After all, I wouldn't want to lose any part of it, and one day I will miss the crazy.
Last week, as the sun was setting, I caught a glimpse of my daughter working on her computer by the light of our little Christmas tree. I imagined her in college, doing the same thing, and the years flashed by before me. It all goes too quickly - the days, the weeks, the years. We have but mere string of moments with our children before they grow and change and fly from the nest. Savor every one.